It seems as though the year has just started and now it is summer already! Time seems to just fly by the older I get. I guess I am slowly becoming aware of what I am doing with my time. For time is something we can never get back. I mean just think of it, you will only have this specific day, June 4, 2018, or which ever day you find your self reading this only once in a life time. So I often have to ask myself if what I am doing with my time is worth my time that is so precious. Truth is I'm often guilty of wasting time with the SCROLL! What I mean is scrolling on YouTube, or scrolling on social media, scrolling fashion sites, scrolling this, scrolling that! And before I know it, I've spent time that I will never get back on meaningless things. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying these things are useless but are they really useful when there is no discipline and balance?
Recently I've been doing my best to seek peace. So lately I've been going to quiet places to sit and pray, meditate, or just reflect and be thankful and present. So on Saturday, I decided that I would spend my Sunday at the beach. I packed some fruits, books and a few other things to just be present. It's funny how when I was younger I sought busyness and now I seek to have peace and quietness. Peace is what I indeed found! Once I arrived, I read, (a book about peace lol), and just sat quietly at other moments hearing the sound of the water, the wind, and the birds. It was peaceful needless to say. I prayed at other moments and I prayed that one specific prayer that I would later not even recognize as answered. That prayer was that God would let me know I was suppose to be there.
Fast forward after some hours on the beach, I decided to head back home in time so that I could catch one of my favorite shows on my antenna TV lol! Yes, no cable! Don't judge me but I shamelessly enjoy the throw back show, In the Heat of the Night. Anyhoo, so as I was heading to my car a guy that I was walking pass on my way to my car stops and says hello. I probably wasn't the friendliest at first as he was like "What's going on sister? Did you have a bad day? I know, you got into it with family!" I was like, "nahh, actually I just came to chill at the beach and read my book." :/ He was like "ok ok ok, well God loves you and check out McDonalds. You can meditate there!" I was like ummmm ok thanks. So I tried to drive to McDonalds for a pit stop before the drive back. It was too crowed so I turned around and headed to Jack in the Box. As I was entering, who do I see again! The same guy! He was like "Hey there I thought you were going to meditate in McDonalds!" lol I'm like ummm nah too busy. He goes on to ask for a favor. Something along the lines of " I'm not asking for money but could you buy me four tacos?" I was like "yea sure." So as I am about to order, I'm like arguing with myself or maybe God about buying tacos! I'm like, "I ain't yes ain't buying four! I'm buying three because I am on a budget!" Right after the guy walks in the restaurant probably because this fast food restaurant was not so fast! And your girl was in there for what seemed like forever!!! So I let him know that I am not buying four, I'm buying three! Needless to say I ended up buying four because they only sell them in twos! As I was leaving, I couldn't find the young man. I briefly looked around and then decided to give the food to a man I saw him talking with earlier in hopes that he would give the food to the guy I spoke with.
You know sometimes after we pray for things, we don't necessarily recognize our answer because it doesn't look or come how we would expect. Earlier today I was speaking with my friend about my Sunday and suddenly I realized through her that God sent my answer to my prayer. The young man said "God loves you," which was my answer! I didn't realize it at the time because I judged by appearances. See, the young man was tatted up!! I mean all over his face and arms! And what did I do? I judged! Straight up judged when I know better! But, God doesn't see as we see. For "people look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart." 1 Samuel 16:7. My friend reminded me about Hebrews 13:2, "Do not forget to show hospitality to strangers, for by so doing some people have shown hospitality to angels without knowing it." Just a few moments before encountering this young man, I read about our money not really being our money. It's God's for He gave me the job I prayed for to have the money I have. I must then be a good steward of what He has given me. Who am I to argue with God about some tacos? lol I'm just saying! Who am I to judge God's children? I think God was teaching me a lesson about my heart and obedience. How many answered prayers do we fail to recognize because it doesn't look how we expected? God is limitless, yet we try to limit Him to how things should look or be done. "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord." Isaiah 55:8. We make things complicated but God is simple and simply wants us to love and not to judge, to be obedient and faithful. For it is not about what we can attain on this earth, but what we allow God to do through us on this earth. For all earthly things will deteriorate, but love remains. Love changes things. Love inspires and awakens. And love is contagious. When we love through God, it inspires others to love. But we must remember not to try to play the judge. For you never know how God's answer and blessing will come. Be open and seek Him. Be of love and obedient for what if you have entertained an angel unknowingly!