What a week it has been!!! I tell you, God has a way of checking me! Actually He gets us all in line if we are open! In this blog post, I want to share my truth. A common misconception is that one will be "perfect" when they are considered 'Christian.' I remember I would once look at folks and pray and wish I had their 'holiness.' They seemed perfect in Christ, and I longed for that. Truth is, none of us are perfect even those we look to as 'holy' or Christian. I think by being honest, we can break free of judgments of others when they fall because we all fall.
On Friday, inauguration day, I must admit I was quite sad! Like I really was! My hope is in God but somehow I had this sadness. This sadness somehow turned into fierce pro-my community! I was cutting up and fired up! But GOD! Ha! Like many folks, I also had some reservation and worry about OUR new president. Somehow this worry turned into a whole new thing. I think it is wonderful to desire to advance our communities, but not to the point where we form ill feelings towards the next. If we aren't careful in life, we can channel our fears, worry, and hurt into bitterness, judgement, and false pride (which was exactly what happened in my case which was also very briefly lived lol).
So here I am, fired up and listening to my music of not letting anybody turn me around! I was ready in those streets, or so I thought. I pull into the car wash, still fired up, and I notice this man sitting across the lot and something in me knew something was about to happen. I looked at him and he looked at me. I suspect he initially did not approach me because he could sense my harshness. I began to wash my car and a few minutes after I notice him approach the person next to me to assist in cleaning the vehicle for a few dollars. I guess that person politely declined and so he approached me. He had a bad injury, as I later learned, which in turn left him with a strong limp. This moved me and in that moment I knew God sent him to me for a purpose, and so I told him yes.
As we began to wash my car together, I felt the hardness and fear which turned into anger slowly fall off of me. I inquired about his name and if he was from Houston. He told me about himself and then inquired about me. I learned he even once lived in my hometown in Louisiana! Just in case I would have any doubts, God made sure that I knew this man was heaven sent for me. The more we talked, the more he told me about his story. I learned about his near death experience and about his hardships. In that moment, I had to hold back the tears. I really wanted to just weep as I realized that I had let bitterness and anger briefly settle within me. The definition of America was being displayed in front of me as we, two people of different backgrounds, culture, and race came together to wash this one vehicle. God had humbled me real quick! The more this man spoke, the more I could hear God's voice whisper that He did not give me gifts to use them as I want and see fit! He gave me gifts to use as He sees fit. I am not required to just love people in my community, but to love all people. This is why He gave us our gifts.
Sometimes we experience hardship in the world and if we aren't careful we can allow seeds of bitterness, hate, fear, anger, strife, and so much more to be planted within us. This is exactly what I briefly had done. I knew better and I'm so thankful to God for checking me and showing me what I was doing. How can he FULLY use me when I choose to operate in the things that are not of him? I had to thank Mr. Thomas for being a blessing to me that day. He left me with some of the greatest words I often heard and that is "I believe when I did bad, bad came to me. Now when I do right, right comes to me." Profound!
If you are struggling as many of us are with what's going on in the world, just know that love is the only answer "For God is Love."