Never in a million years would I have imagined that I would become the ‘praise Jesus amen alleluia type.’ I've always gone to church, but I left all of the church talk at church. I would hear some folks talk about praise Jesus and secretly think to myself, “they really do the most.” But I tell you when you have tried many earthly attempts at fulfillment, you come to a place where you feel like there has to be some nonmaterialistic thing that can give my life meaning. I tried to search for fulfillment through things. But I came to a point where even having the flyest outfits did absolutely nothing. I felt a hole that no thing could fulfill and through a series of events, I came to the realization that just maybe I should really try this God thing. I went out and purchased a book I often heard about, ‘The Power of a Praying Woman’ and as I read each page, tears filled my eyes and I slowly began to realize that this whole time it was God that I needed. It was a slow process. A slow process of striping the outer to get to my inner. It was difficult many days and still is. There were times I would try to turn away but there was a pull. I felt more and more convicted to seek change. It was a tough process that lasted a couple of years and is still going on. But I wouldn’t change the journey. I feel like I am finally coming to a place of fulfillment. My fulfillment comes from all things above. It’s so hard to surrender your way of thinking of what your life should be. But it is worth it. Here I am today, still on the journey. It has been a difficult and yet amazing journey. I still make mistakes. I don't always get it right and that's ok because I'm still journeying. I sometimes have to laugh at how I ‘cut up’ these days. My friends can attest to this! I will randomly shed a tear and start swaying when that right song hits that place when I feel Thee touch. If you say a word that speaks to my soul, I will really cut up! I’m talking about ready to run back and forth to that word! lol What can I say, I cuts up! But I am ok with that. If you have ever felt that touch on your life, you know what I mean! Ah, the journey…but it is oh so worth it.
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